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My mom was diagnosed as a paranoid schitzophrenic when I was about 3, although she's always lived with us, she was practically an invalid up until I was about 11 or 12. It's so weird because she was always here but she was never all "there" and I don't really have any memories of her in my childhood, because she spent most of it sleeping, trying to temporarily ease the anguish of hearing voices. She had amnesia from the time she was 9 up until she was about 30, which is when I was 3, when she snapped out of it she didn't know who me or anyone else was. It was like someone else had been living her entire life, and now all of a sudden she's here and who is this man (my dad ) and these two kids ? Not long after she started hearing voices and was diagnosed with schitzophrenia. It's strange because she says she doesn't regret having us, but she always talks about how unfulfilling her life is. She suffers from depression also, but if you met her you wouldn't know any of this because she hides it so well. The only thing worse than knowing someone you care about is suffering, is pretending that everything is okay when you know it isn't.
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