[Blitzgal]

I feel awful for Lucas. I had terrible social anxiety all through college to the point where I'd be throwing up before class if I had to do a presentation.

As Junk said, there is definitely an issue with these drugs being over-prescribed, however I think it's a mistake to avoid seeing a therapist in fear that they will just throw you on a drug (don't worry Junk, I'm not saying this is what you meant). Therapy doesn't help everyone. It didn't help me, and I will admit that. For me having supportive friends and just growing up and understanding myself better helped more. BUT you owe it to yourself to try to find someone to talk to that you can trust, to see if it helps.

I also do not think you are a "piece of shit" for developing feelings for someone. You are mature enough to understand that your feelings did not obligate her to reciprocate. That puts you leagues ahead of other people who get angry and bitter at the other person for not liking you back. She clearly felt uncomfortable that you kept bringing it up but you obviously understand that and that will only help you interact with people in the future.

But seriously, please talk to someone. It sucks going through depression alone. Man, I remember spending days at a time in bed because I just couldn't deal with anything. By the time I was 25 it had started to get better and now I'm 34 and I don't even have my periods of "melancholy," as I used to call them. I want to just say "it gets better" but everyone is different.