I'm not even finished with the whole show yet and had to chime in. I rarely write on the forums, but this show with Robert Kelly is very intriguing to me because I can relate to his messed up (and yes, it is very messed up) sexual point of view.
I have a very hard time determining what 'gets my dick hard' because it changes so much, especially when I'm in a monogamous relationship. I make the choice to be in a pretty vanilla (sexually speaking) relationship. It's too complicated to bring in all my sexual preference confusion into it, since he's a simple dude.
When he spoke about the immediate 'sexual connection' people experience with complete strangers, I was shaking my head vigorously in agreement while driving down the road. I have to make a conscious choice to be the way I am (respectable to my partner and not acting on sexual impulses) a lot because I run into situations like this. The few people that I've talked to about my sexuality and view point on the subject of monogamy, love, and sexual preferences say that I have a masculine stance on it- but I've never heard it explained the way that Robert Kelly did today, and it opened my eyes to the subject. I appreciated his honesty and openness about a very hard thing to explain to people.
I was hoping as time went on I could sort out my sexual feelings and be able to improve my sex life, but, perhaps all hope is lost if Robert Kelly is almost twice my age, and even has a therapist to sort it out with and still hasn't worked it all out. At least I'm aware of my fucked-up-ed-ness, and let this be a public warning to any man wanting to date me in the future.
Peace and love
