[Sparrow]

Magical Thinking!!! that’s where you feel as though your thoughts and words can affect the real world. when i was a kid, my nighttime prayer included a list of individual people i had to mention or something bad might happen to them. that list started to get really long, but i had a compulsion to say every single one every single night. high levels of anxiety keeping up with it.

still have anxiety sometimes if i think something mean. or, like, satisfaction if it’s something i want. it’s not healthy for me to engage in all that “manifest” self-help thinking. goes off the rail.