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I think we made a good couple.
There was deep truth too. Don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive myself for tainting all the good things. I hate myself for that. I will miss her forever. |
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I don't think it's about monogamy but I'm not ruling anything out or pretending to know anything right now, i just didn't actually want to fuck or be literally physical with other people. I was losing control and was trying to manufacture it in ways I was ashamed of and couldn't understand myself, and so I hid it. Like a child. And lied. Worse than a child. I wanted those "blips" to be separate from me. From our marriage. "Ill just deal with this over here and then go back to normal life." When I'm not spinning, I don't identify with those actions, and then honestly believe it will never happen again. So I didn't go to meetings like I should have been. I didn't prepare for the spinning times because I felt okay. Didn't take my medicine because I wasn't having the symptoms. My will was strong. "I don't actually want to be with other people. Or drink. Or or or," so I'm good. And that cycle of thinking is what they call the disease. Whether you agree with that term or not, my self-will is broken and I finally had to admit that. Thanks for your encouragement. I will never stop trying to be better. I cant afford to sleep on myself again. I've lost everything that means anything to me. I lost my girl. My partner. The person I love more than anyone in this existence. I have to get better because If I can't learn from THAT I might as well disappear.
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I also know the weight of the wave of the public-ness of this all // as somebody who has danced with self sabotage / has worked on bringing the dark into the light / I don’t want this to become a giant wave of hate onto a human who is publicly trying to “do something right”... If anything yes, maybe some more buffer layers are needed... Maybe this recording shouldn’t have been sent to KATG for them to carry & give space for... maybe henny should have expressed this into the ether all on his own... But I also think deep down inside he needs all the little kernels of truth we are giving in this thread so he can try to learn & grow & ultimately let go.... |
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Henny, you’ve been dancing in the dark which leads to lies.... I know it’s hard, but I also want to believe that deep down you ultimately crave to live in the light.... Just gotta stop thinking you’re not worthy of loving yourself, which leads down rabbit holes trying to fill in the soul hole.... Now you have a chance, to truly look inside, embrace the light & try to do better == one day at a time / one hour at a time / one min at a time / one lifetime at a time... Sending you tons of love buddy... |
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Hennessy is my bestfriend. If sides had to be taken I would have to take his no matter what he had done. He's my brother. I was so grateful when Chemda said not to take sides because I love her dearly and would never want to be on a side against her. I am grateful to KATG because even as it becomes more difficult for us to hangout I can know Chemda's life and laugh at her jokes. It must be weird that something this personal is also your work and is entertainment for others. I feel weird posting on this forum and eagerly awaiting a response episode about my friend's tragedies. But this weird process has been a part of their relationship from the beginning. I think he made this episode for closure with that aspect of them as a couple. He's also been in a ten year relationship with the audience. It's a relief for him to have everyone know. He doesn't expect sympathy or to get credit for admitting to his own fucked up behavior. I know he painstakingly tried to take out anything that could be an excuse. Maybe it was wrong of him to try and control the narrative in any way. Maybe he should have left it all up to Chemda. But maybe it's his responsibility to tell it. Hopefully the creation of this episode will end up being healing for both of them.
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Not during the relationship, but hopefully when he was finally called out he was honest with her. But who knows. I'm naively hopeful that people do the right thing, but I've been burned many a time because of that.
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