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08-22-2014, 04:46 AM | #21 (permalink) |
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This past Monday, I made the decision to stop taking the antidepressant medication Lexapro (Escitalopam), which I have been on for the past 5 years.
Recently, I have been noticing disturbing symptoms that, after reading and talking with doctors, are associated with the long term usage of this drug. With the whole depression talk that has been going on here and in the media since that bloke who's pretty well known ended his life, I've decided that it's time to stop poisoning myself with this medication. The symptoms I have been experiencing in greater frequency in the past 3 or 4 months include: Gastrointestinal disturbances (frequent nausea/vomiting). Increased mood swings including - and get this - depression, anxiety and feelings of dread. Increased auditory disturbances (ringing in ears). Frequent Migraines. Increased sexual dysfunction. I've tried going off it before but the effects have been pretty disastrous. The withdrawals I've experienced have been so bad that I've ended up having to go back on them in order to stop them for happening. So, since Monday the withdrawal symptoms have come on very strong as I predicted they would. These have included: hyper salivating. stomach cramps, nausea and vomiting. visual disturbances including flashes and black spots across my vision. Balance disturbances. Physical tremors Violent mood swings including sudden bouts of anxiety, paranoia, anger, crying and depression. Brain shocks - akin to being electrocuted. I've been trying to keep an eye and an ear out for these symptoms and am trying to ride them out through sheer bloody mindedness. I haven't told my serioso I'm doing this because, in the past, she has been against me stopping them. I've tried explaining to her that I believe the Lexapro is doing more harm to me than good but she has disagreed with me. Her mind is on the previous attempts I've made to stop them and the withdrawals I, and by extension, she has endured. So, I'm on my own in this for now. I'm keeping notes on the withdrawals as they happen and am hoping they will slow down in the next week or so. My aim is to be off them completely then I'm going to start looking at alternatives to Lexapro to manage my depression going forward. Here's hoping I don't go off the deep end in the mean time.
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Crying about the Great Barrier Reef Dropping Deuces on the trampoline Being a Male Nurse OK, probably not a great idea. Trust, baby; it's all about trust. Mind you, I don't know Deanette, so maybe you made the right call. Could you say "this shit is killing me so fucking let me try to kick it before i fucking lose it." |
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Unfortunately, we've argued bitterly over this in the past. She doesn't think I should come off them, even though she is aware of the effects. I think they are poisoning me. |
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bummer about deanette - however is she worried about what you'll do if you're off them? is there a history? |
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The only history has been chronic depression and anxiety as a result of a number of situational events - marriage breakdown, assault at work and the tumour diagnosis/surgery.
I've been seeing a psychologist to address the mental side of things and that isn't going to change. |
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By the way, not telling your serioso you're off them is one thing but have you at least told your therapist and/or doctor what you're doing? |
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For people in the United States, there is a national suicide prevention hot line you can call free of charge.
Visit the following page: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org In Australia, people can call Lifeline Australia via the following: https://m.lifeline.org.au or visit Beyond Blue: http://www.beyondblue.org.au In the United Kingdom the following site is a great first step if you're seeking help or an ear: http://www.depressionuk.org/index.shtml |
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so, in general, the weeks leading up to a show for me are tough. this particular time around its been compounded by lots of travel and time around people which has had me in the "on" position for longer than was probably wise for where i'm at.
today was a bad day. i'm reacting very sharply to things that don't necessitate it and in a fit of fear and desperation i scratched up my arm pretty good; i wring my hands normally, but high stress causes me to scratch. nothing a little anti-inflammatory and hydrocortisone can't handle, but it spooked me. i'm not in a good place and there's a lot riding on the line. lots of pressure and my seams are beginning to buckle. not looking for solutions, but i'm hoping this will get it out of my skin and help me stay accountable lest i dive inward too deep. i don't have Bear to help me right now and i'm feeling kind of alone. |
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