[Sparrow]

you aren't reviled, dean. you're one of us for better or for worse. we all act a fool sometimes. sometimes quite grandly. sometimes a lot. don't question if you belong here. you belong here.

some wonderful things you've done already:

seeing your patterns

recognizing you have a problem

owning up to your actions with people you've affected

apologizing sincerely

holding yourself accountable to trusted, loving support systems

being willing to receive help

being open to working towards forgiveness and trust building

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that shame you're feeling, it's a wake up call. a little tip from one among the repeatedly fallen: forgive yourself. shame can be really useful in these initial doings, but dean, especially i think for you, it can eat your will. it can hinder your accepting forgiveness and stall your progression forward. as you go along, put YOU on your list of people to make it right with. you're human. it's ok. let yourself be loved; by your family, by your friends, and by yourself. it's gonna take the all a' ya's.

we love you. we are here to help you through this. game on, fucks.