3295: Floodgates w/ Hannah Boone

[O'Ryan]

Have you ever considered having a pro do some digging about your family history? It seems like this might be a job for Peter Grossman. If he was able to find Jon Petrie, I don't see how he couldn't find some info regarding either side of your family.

[Apia resurrected]

Keith I'd prefer Metallica on my playlist to Whitney Houston.
I hope you like me even more now.

[jcro21]

God nothing better than when a guest spills all the beans on a shitty relationship. Weird but true indeed.

[Apia resurrected]

Originally Posted by jcro21

God nothing better than when a guest spills all the beans on a shitty relationship. Weird but true indeed.

And he seemed so in Looooove when he was on.

[Scorpion]

Originally Posted by Apia resurrected

And he seemed so in Looooove when he was on.

wait, that was sarcasm right? I liked it for the sarcasm, if it wasn't sarcasm I need to take my like back... not that I don't like you just that the sarcasm, if it was sarcasm, warranted a like, not that you don't normally warrant likes, I like you a lot. I mean I like many of your posts, not that I like you a lot. But I do like you a lot that is just not what I meant, sure I like you plenty just...

[Apia resurrected]

Originally Posted by Scorpion

wait, that was sarcasm right? I liked it for the sarcasm, if it wasn't sarcasm I need to take my like back... not that I don't like you just that the sarcasm, if it was sarcasm, warranted a like, not that you don't normally warrant likes, I like you a lot. I mean I like many of your posts, not that I like you a lot. But I do like you a lot that is just not what I meant, sure I like you plenty just...

He seemed really in love, in a very impressive way.
He seemed to admire her in every way. That’s why I now wonder if he really felt that way or is he a great actor.
Was it all a Trick? Or can such impressive love just vanish in a few weeks?

[Sparrow]

i’m Borderline. #shocker

having a therapist say it out loud gave much needed context to all the chaos i was experiencing inside and projecting into every relationship i had, personal and professional. something we all share is an intense triggering from either perceived or actual abandonment by a “favorite person,” who oftentimes we’ve developed a connection with that may or may not actually exist for the other person. i can’t always tell what is real and what i’ve strung together.

another super fun thing: my responses are often disproportionate to a given situation; a level 2-3 thing will read as a 12. everything feels urgent. i will be too reactive to nothing or not-responsive enough to actual urgency. it’s scary not being able to trust your gut.

my self-identity is incorrectly tethered to my current moods which are ever shifting. it’s like seeing yourself through a kaleidoscope. in the moment something is true and authentic and in a second it becomes untrue or is abruptly over.

it’s a constant question of what’s real and how to behave. getting on a mood stabilizer helped me a lot to curb the intensity of everything, but it’s not a panacea. vigilance on which impulses to act on or ignore and a support system of people to check reality with are necessities.

[Scorpion]

Originally Posted by Apia resurrected

He seemed really in love, in a very impressive way.
He seemed to admire her in every way. That’s why I now wonder if he really felt that way or is he a great actor.
Was it all a Trick? Or can such impressive love just vanish in a few weeks?

It was a trick. I would have to listen back but I remember thinking he didn't seem that heart felt about it. Naturally it's easy to say that now but I would never have said that at the time either. I don't know him he could have been honest about it at the time and it just didn't run very deep.

He is an asshole for what he did, inexcusable behavior! I think the red flag looking back was how he kept her at a distance from other people in his life. If you are really into someone you bring them INTO your life not hold them at arms length.

[Scorpion]

Originally Posted by Apia resurrected

Keith I'd prefer Metallica on my playlist to Whitney Houston.
I hope you like me even more now.

I know I do.