3295: Floodgates w/ Hannah Boone

[jcro21]

God nothing better than when a guest spills all the beans on a shitty relationship. Weird but true indeed.

[Apia resurrected]

Originally Posted by jcro21

God nothing better than when a guest spills all the beans on a shitty relationship. Weird but true indeed.

And he seemed so in Looooove when he was on.

[Scorpion]

Originally Posted by Apia resurrected

And he seemed so in Looooove when he was on.

wait, that was sarcasm right? I liked it for the sarcasm, if it wasn't sarcasm I need to take my like back... not that I don't like you just that the sarcasm, if it was sarcasm, warranted a like, not that you don't normally warrant likes, I like you a lot. I mean I like many of your posts, not that I like you a lot. But I do like you a lot that is just not what I meant, sure I like you plenty just...

[Apia resurrected]

Originally Posted by Scorpion

wait, that was sarcasm right? I liked it for the sarcasm, if it wasn't sarcasm I need to take my like back... not that I don't like you just that the sarcasm, if it was sarcasm, warranted a like, not that you don't normally warrant likes, I like you a lot. I mean I like many of your posts, not that I like you a lot. But I do like you a lot that is just not what I meant, sure I like you plenty just...

He seemed really in love, in a very impressive way.
He seemed to admire her in every way. That’s why I now wonder if he really felt that way or is he a great actor.
Was it all a Trick? Or can such impressive love just vanish in a few weeks?

[Sparrow]

i’m Borderline. #shocker

having a therapist say it out loud gave much needed context to all the chaos i was experiencing inside and projecting into every relationship i had, personal and professional. something we all share is an intense triggering from either perceived or actual abandonment by a “favorite person,” who oftentimes we’ve developed a connection with that may or may not actually exist for the other person. i can’t always tell what is real and what i’ve strung together.

another super fun thing: my responses are often disproportionate to a given situation; a level 2-3 thing will read as a 12. everything feels urgent. i will be too reactive to nothing or not-responsive enough to actual urgency. it’s scary not being able to trust your gut.

my self-identity is incorrectly tethered to my current moods which are ever shifting. it’s like seeing yourself through a kaleidoscope. in the moment something is true and authentic and in a second it becomes untrue or is abruptly over.

it’s a constant question of what’s real and how to behave. getting on a mood stabilizer helped me a lot to curb the intensity of everything, but it’s not a panacea. vigilance on which impulses to act on or ignore and a support system of people to check reality with are necessities.

[Sparrow]

Chemda, you know when you’re sick and can’t sleep and it feels like you’ll never sleep again; it’s like that all the time about everything forever.

[Scorpion]

Originally Posted by Apia resurrected

He seemed really in love, in a very impressive way.
He seemed to admire her in every way. That’s why I now wonder if he really felt that way or is he a great actor.
Was it all a Trick? Or can such impressive love just vanish in a few weeks?

It was a trick. I would have to listen back but I remember thinking he didn't seem that heart felt about it. Naturally it's easy to say that now but I would never have said that at the time either. I don't know him he could have been honest about it at the time and it just didn't run very deep.

He is an asshole for what he did, inexcusable behavior! I think the red flag looking back was how he kept her at a distance from other people in his life. If you are really into someone you bring them INTO your life not hold them at arms length.

[porky2468]

Originally Posted by Scorpion

It was a trick. I would have to listen back but I remember thinking he didn't seem that heart felt about it. Naturally it's easy to say that now but I would never have said that at the time either. I don't know him he could have been honest about it at the time and it just didn't run very deep.

He is an asshole for what he did, inexcusable behavior! I think the red flag looking back was how he kept her at a distance from other people in his life. If you are really into someone you bring them INTO your life not hold them at arms length.

I take everything at face value (I'm too trusting, which is one of my downfalls) so I think at the time that I believed it. I might have to go and have a relisten though.

[porky2468]

I went on a date that started off no contact, but we were drinking in the park and once you start drinking you stop caring so we broke the 2m rule and once it happened once we thought fuck it. We're actually together now, and neither have had covid so this one worked out for the best. But I did feel a bit ashamed about for a while so didn't really tell anyone until things eased up a bit.

We got on really well over text and on the phone, but I don't think I'd have met up with anyone that I didn't think I'd have a connection with.