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Originally Posted by lizsquiz
If we didn't feel crap when things end, why should we care when things begin?
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You're so right on that. But that's something i'm getting only lately. For a lot of time i avoided any sort of bonding with anybody, to avoid getting hurt.
And i'm not only talking about relationships, although those are always the hardest and most rewarding of interactions. I literally tried everything to be completely empty and emotionless. I didnt want to get involved too much with people, care about them, even think too much about them. It also had to do with my family issues. I just thought that if having emotions and caring about others made me feel bad, i would just make myself like a piece of concrete.
And i admit this too. For a long time, i enjoyed making others suffer that way. It made me feel less weak. I reveled in being an asshole.
Then, with time and thanks to good people (and i obviously include the KATGers and K and C themselves), i turned into a normal person again.
It was a looooooooooooooong process though. And i understand very well how some just never get out of it.
Oh Teddy. You just turned me into Emo Junk. Darn.