[Blitzgal]

To the girl who was molested and has problems with social phobias now...I went through a similar experience. It wasn't a family member but a (female) daycare provider. On top of messing with me she would be physically violent and also humiliate me by doing things like not allowing me to go the bathroom and forcing me to wet my pants. My younger brother and I were "cared" for by her from the time I was two until I was seven years old. Then the state started investigating her business and my mother finally caught wind that something was up and took us out of there. Before then I never said a word about what was going on and Dixie (the cunt) would just lie to her about how badly behaved I was, how I was pissing myself on purpose, etc. I never told my mother any of it until after college. I was afraid that I would hurt her or make her feel like it was her fault.

I literally hated people up through college and refused to let anyone get close to me (physically or emotionally). It wasn't until I met a good friend who'd been through similar circumstances and who encouraged me to move past it, get into the world, etc. I never even danced in public until I was twenty years old, never dated until senior year in college, etc. But it was all because I finally had some support via my best friend Jen. I'm 29 now and am so different than I was then that I'm just unrecognizable.

I went through some counseling but it never helped me. I don't know why. For me, the best thing was finding a support system. What worked best for me was finding other people who'd been through the same situation who I could talk to, and people who would really encourage me to get through my issues and live a normal life. But I really feel for this girl because she's still trapped in the situation. Obviously she can't get away from her mother. Get out of that house the second you can.

Edit: A few years ago I found out that Dixie developed Multiple sclerosis. It may be evil for me to think so, but I'm grateful that she will live the rest of her life in horrible pain. I also believe there is a sort of cosmic justice in this world, because it couldn't have happened to a more deserving person.