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In 2005 I started going through a really bad patch in my life.
Depression was hanging on me like a shroud.
Weirdly everyone kept thinking I was a really happy person, but I wasn't even sure I wanted to continue to go on living.
I had to find reasons to keep going.
The best one I had found was I didn’t want to hurt others by having my loved ones find me dead.
For the same reason I couldn’t bring myself to step in front of a bus, train, or car, as having worked as a paramedic on ambulances, I’ve seen the state drivers can put themselves in when they hit someone.
I just got more and more depressed, and everyone kept saying what a happy person I was.
I'd gone to counselling for my issues for quite some time, but that didn’t help.
It was recommended by my doctor that I take various drugs, but after almost two years the doctor admitted nothing he gave me seemed to help and I came off them.
Then late 2007, one of my brother-in-laws suggested I listen to KATG.
I couldn’t stop laughing and felt better; I found other reasons to go on, and now, while occasionally I feel depressed, I look forward to every single KATG show, and I’d say that 99% of the time, I’m up, not down.
I can’t afford to get the VIP; lack of money was one of the many things that had contributed to being depressed, although I don’t think it was the real reason, as I’m still constantly broke, but I promote the show as I can.
I’ve been to the England show with my brother-in-law.
I put the stickers I got there up when I had them, on trains, buses and the tube.
I wear my KATG shirts with pride and constantly tell people about the podcast.
I often take the relationship book to work, and everyone wants to read it, borrow it, and several have purchased it.
I have no idea how many people actually listen to the show because of my efforts, I know there are at least three, but KATG did what counselling and drugs couldn’t do, bring back my internal laughter and enjoyment of the world.
All I can say is, thank you KATG, and if I ever win the lottery, you will be rewarded.
Now all I have to do is find the money to buy the tickets.
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