Just another binge listener...

[kat666]

Ohhhh..... two days ago i started listening to the podcast right back from episode 1. its sooo sweet to hear them back in the old days. I started listening really early on back in the day, i think around episode 100, but went back even back then and listened ftom the start, so im doing it all over again.

its sooo long ago! michael jackson was getting tried and everyone was friends with Patrice!

weirdly i lost interest in the podcast back then in the time that Keith and Chema were pretending to be still together.. so when i checked it again a year later I was like - what the fuck they are broken up?
i really love being a VIP member now. Chemda gave me my first month for free after I emailed her a picture of my favourite tiny spoon.

Its really nice for me cos I am stuck in Europe due to having a kid with a German. I talk more english with her more than i do any other person, so to hear you two talking to each other and with the guests saves me from complete linguistic stagnation.

I find male friends fit me better than female friends, and i know i have one, but maybe i have two. the second has asked me to go with him to the city university bar where all the english lecturers and stuff are hanging out. I am really into this idea but the one thing that makes me nervous is that i am living in a socialist project. Technically on paper i get 105 euros a month, but i live in the collective for free, we cook together and get loads of free food, i never have to pay for heating or furniture, the only clothes i need to buy are socks and underwear. we get donations from all sorts of stuff and sell at lot but we as members get the first choice of it all. Personally I love it. its like a dream to me to be free from the thing of chasing money. I get surprised all the time from nice stuff that might just turn up and i can keep.

The thing is i am stuck here for the next 10 years probably, and the harshness of Germans is driving me a bit crazy. I am wondering how to turn up in the university bar with the right attitude, they all will be making so much money than me and i dont want to come across as this weird fucking New Zealand curiousity but as a human being.

I have dreadlocks. Ive had them since i was 18. I feel sometimes like getting rid of them would improve my social interactions but on the other side i dont really care for people who WOULD judge such a thing and maybe in the end it saves me energy ... i dont know. in any case im not gonna cut them off in the chance please a bunch of intellectuals. Most of the time i am able to live inside this bubble of acceptance and when i have to deal with it its easy to say fuck that shit.

Should i meet up with the university lecturers? am i too bitter? I was thinking about hanging out at gay bars to try and find a new friend? *Should i just bite the bullet and go to the sauna lol


* edit : actually no.... that will just be full of Germans