1388: Mushroom Head

[guitarrob]

My parents know that I have smoked pot before, and I'm sure they assume that I still do. I smoked almost every day when I was living with my ex when I was living in Texas. After she moved out I pretty much stopped, just didn't want to put through the effort to find/buy it, so i laid off of it.
I dunno if it's just because I don't smoke enough or what, but if I took more than one hit I would end up getting too high and paranoid. I don't smoke hardly ever anymore, and if I do it's only every so often and not that much.

[Junkenstein]

i havent done shrooms in a long time and i feel i should do some for enhancement purposes. wither that or some other psychedelics. but i have meds, therapy and a lot of dark stuff piled up in my brain, which i am terribly scared to bring up.

Some friends tell me it would help dealing with the negativity, but its really a lot to face. im divided.

PS: my parents dont know i did, or do drugs as they dont know a lot of stuff about me. My mother has a weird obsession about "junkies" (which is ironic sinbce she is an alcoholic) and my father is a med abuser that had troubles for that. if they ever knew they wouldve probably called cops on me and sent me to jail to straghten me up or hurt me badly. so never told em, even when we stopped having a real relationship. lies and silence are better.

ADD: true, the smokin ads dont work on assholes. my father got cancer three times and smokes even when doing chemo. we and the doctors told him to quit and that ti was worsening things and he said he'd rather die doin what he wants than obeying some doctor. If you think thats badass, your a piece of shit.

[Fourbid]

My parents know I do drugs. The first person I talked to after I did LSD for the first time was my dad, my mom told me to get a medical card if I'm going to smoke. Is it a relationship that's not quite the norm? Sure, but I think it's a good one.

For the record, I'm 19 and I've moved out and all that jazz. It would be strange if I were a 30 year old who's mother has to tell him to get a medical card.

[thelastknowngod]

Originally Posted by Junkenstein

i have meds, therapy and a lot of dark stuff piled up in my brain, which i am terribly scared to bring up.

Some friends tell me it would help dealing with the negativity, but its really a lot to face. im divided.

i would advise against it.

any negativity that you bring into it will be amplified at least 10 times over.

if you are brave and really want to go head to head with whatever demons youve got then go for it.. 9 times out of 10 though its not a positive ending. it works for some but theres is just no real way to know how you'll feel about it until youre actually in that moment.

[Junkenstein]

Originally Posted by thelastknowngod

i would advise against it.

any negativity that you bring into it will be amplified at least 10 times over.

that is what i am afraid of. my last trip was in a time when i was way less troubled and there were lots of scary parts.

Still, as i was discussing with a friend, to have a period where one is actually free from any negativity is almost impossible, especially for me. not cause i'm a negative person but simply cause i had a LONG period of fuck ups, and i doubt my head will ever be completeley over it.

also, i think shrooms have been outlawed even in amsterdam, so it might be a mess to get them now.

i never tried DMT, also. thats something i feel like i have to try.

[Fourbid]

Originally Posted by Junkenstein

that is what i am afraid of. my last trip was in a time when i was way less troubled and there were lots of scary parts.

Still, as i was discussing with a friend, to have a period where one is actually free from any negativity is almost impossible, especially for me. not cause i'm a negative person but simply cause i had a LONG period of fuck ups, and i doubt my head will ever be completeley over it.

also, i think shrooms have been outlawed even in amsterdam, so it might be a mess to get them now.

i never tried DMT, also. thats something i feel like i have to try.

DMT is fucking silly. That really is the best way to describe it. I've only done it once, but the trip wasn't as hard as I expected it to be based on what everyone was saying about it.

[Junkenstein]

Originally Posted by Fourbid

DMT is fucking silly. That really is the best way to describe it. I've only done it once, but the trip wasn't as hard as I expected it to be based on what everyone was saying about it.

not completely sure but when it comes to non-chemical drugs, one always has to consider the chance they got third rate diluted stuff, since it isnt legal and there isnt an actual quality control over it.

i remember a friend saying that "Salviua is a myth and doesnt get you really high", to discover that he got some scam stuff that had maybe 1/100th of salvia in it.

[myq]

Originally Posted by Junkenstein

i remember a friend saying that "Salvia is a myth and doesnt get you really high", to discover that he got some scam stuff that had maybe 1/100th of salvia in it.

which is crazy because salvia is legal.

also you have to do it right. but maybe that's just me. the first time i tried salvia it made me feel a little light-headed and weird. the next time (when i did it right), it made me feel like a robotic alien accordion that was also the whole universe.

[Junkenstein]

Originally Posted by myq

which is crazy because salvia is legal.

also you have to do it right. but maybe that's just me. the first time i tried salvia it made me feel a little light-headed and weird. the next time (when i did it right), it made me feel like a robotic alien accordion that was also the whole universe.

its legal in the states but it's been outlawed in italy after a bunch of kids had troubles with it. lots of smart shops who basically lived on that alone were shut down and treated as drug dealers. i even tried to raise awareness with a few web articles, but to no use.

Outlawing of Kawa was even more nonsensical. Theres a huge "zero tolerance" thing goin on here.

[marina]

My parents are both drug addicts, so they assume that I've done a lot more drugs than I actually have, but truth be told, I stayed away from drugs and drinking because of them. It didn't help that whatever drugs I did do, I did in attempt to escape my situation and instead they brought up all my negative feelings and horrible assumptions about the world.

Having a dad with a crack habit and a junkie for a mom can make a person lose perspective when it comes to drugs. However, I did start smoking when I was 12 because I was hanging out with some older kids who smoked and I wanted to be cool like them. I knew it was a terrible idea, but I was suicidally depressed and didn't expect to live to experience the consequences. Even as a smoker, though, I was never very heavy. A pack would last me a school week and then another would last the weekend when I was at my peak.