This isn't funny, it's actually depressing.

[ooda]

Originally Posted by stjoe

Diagnosed bi-polar. I'm not going to bother reading all the replies, but my story is probably almost exactly the same as theirs, if not a combination of all of them.

I or II?

[I_Like_Kittens]

Wow, you guys, I really appreciate everyone taking the time to reply to this topic. I figure this is more efficient than having Keith and Chemda read one letter and give advice. The more advice the merrier. There are some great posts that I've just been skimming but I will read them more indepth in a little bit.

I am 25 now and have struggled with my depression for about 8 years now. In fact, it has fucked with my schooling. I'm not suicidal, I'm just sad. I used to sleep all the time, but that's not how my depression is now. Now I just feel alone even with other people around. And I just feel sad. October and February are always bad, but I think the stress of my upcoming senior year and all that goes with it (job search, etc) excacerbates everything. I am on meds and in therapy but I am very open to suggestions.

I think that one of the worst parts about depression is feeling alone and while I still do feel alone, you guys replying to the post made me feel less so.

If you are worried that you are rehashing something, don't be afraid to post it. No matter how similar everyone's stories sound, each person has something different and I (and maybe others) can benefit from hearing your stories and what worked.

Once again, thank you so very much.

[I_Like_Kittens]

Originally Posted by jwdd27

Good post Perc, and good thread ILK.

I've been there and done that depression-wise, apart from the self harming/suicide attempts, cos I'm too much of a pussy to stand the pain.

There are 5,000 people on these forums, and we should support each other - we're in this ting together. There are a lot of idiots on here, but there are also a lot of people with good life experience who can offer good advice.

One of the causes of depression, in my opinion, is worrying about how the rest of the world sees you and how your actions and achievements are perceived.
Once you get to a certain age you realise that it's not important what people think of you. One of my main philosophies is "I just don't give a fuck", and it's served me well in the last couple of years.

Also, always remember the words of Bill Hicks - "It's just a ride".

I agree there are some idiots, but honestly, I think this was the best place to post. A major way I deal with my depression is through humor and KATG provides more doses of humor than my meds provide doses of happiness. I do a bit of stand-up comedy where I am (nothing major) and from what I can tell, we can be some depressed people. Thanks.

[unsane]

Welcome to the club!!!! Half of America are on meds and depressed. Watch the news and wonder why....

[I_Like_Kittens]

Originally Posted by unsane

Welcome to the club!!!! Half of America are on meds and depressed. Watch the news and wonder why....

I think for many of us, the news has little to do with how we are feeling.

[DanClass]

Originally Posted by unsane

Welcome to the club!!!! Half of America are on meds and depressed. Watch the news and wonder why....

FUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKK YOUUUUUUU!!

[I_Like_Kittens]

Originally Posted by DanClass

FUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKKK YOUUUUUUU!!

There's seriously nothing like a good FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKK
YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU to make you feel a little bit better no matter how your day is going.

[perclissigi]

It's amazing to see how many familiar aspects I see in everyone’s stories. It's amazing that you've all posted here too.

Cubby - you don't look like a douche at all, it's so understandable, nobody can be a crutch for someone else, we've all got out own shit to deal with. I think you're brave for doing what you did; it was the right thing to do.

Kittens - glad we could offer some help.

And regarding meds, I found Prozac was only good sometimes, just for leveling things out, but if anything it made my suicidal tendencies worse (especially when I drank) because I plain didn't give a fuck what happened to me. And as for the sex drive, forget about it, although depression does that anyway. The only good thing about it, is that if I was in the mood, I could go forever, seriously, I was like marathon man.

I'm so happy that this is a place where we can have conversations like this, as well as the usual "Fuck You's".

What an amazing community!

(Edited to correct some of my god-awful, 5-in-the-morning-spelling.)

[XbluesparkX]

I'm too lazy to write anything long, but I was depressed during my sophmore year of high school. I was always crying about absolutely nothing. I've been on zoloft for about 3 years.

[Sexy_Potatoe_with_an_E]

It's almost hard to read all of these posts. My mom has been suffering from depression for at least 15 years. It's almost scarey trying to imagine what she feels like everyday, knowing that I can't help. Whenever she tries to open up to me, about how she puts on this merry facade while she feels like killing herself everyday, I can only stare blankly and quickly change the subject. Having to convince her to go to psychiatric emergency when it becomes apparent that she has relapsed and finding past written suicide notes had become a regular routine last year. The real thing that frightens me other than thought of losing my mom, is that it runs in the family on both sides, that I often feel miserable for no real substantial reason it seems, that I am highly susceptible to it. I had been an outcast through all of elementary school and junior high, by the time I got to highschool, with people who were more like me and accepted me, I didn't understand. I chose to isolate myself because I had become so used to being the pariah, it just didn't make sense to me that people actually liked me...it took a whole year of adjustment just to figure out that things could be different. I don't know if I'm depressed or was depressed or have just been influenced by my mom's disassociative, disconnected and bitter tendencies, but I find myself falling into the trend of them. I don't believe that I am depressed but I know that I easily can be so I try to stay aware of my behavior. I tend to be a magnet of those who are as all of my close friends ("Pencil Jerk") are. I've been too many people's support systems and I know what kind of toll that can take, I often believe that's part of the reason why I feel sad sometimes, it seems to be the only consistent thing in the people around me. I'm happiest when I'm around happy people, that's the best advice I can give you, surround yourself with good people that will make YOU feel good, not people that will reflect your anguish.