O doctorsleep, where art thou?

[fluxquanta]

Originally Posted by DWarrior

My predictions:
- Sleep graduated, landed a great starter job and saved up enough to move out.
- He got drunk one night with his bi friend and her gf, fucked them both, and his friend realized she always loved the cock (his cock)
- He's saving up for an engagement ring now
butnah

wouldn't that be somethin'?

[ssgtballard]

Originally Posted by DWarrior

My predictions:
- Sleep graduated, landed a great starter job and saved up enough to move out.
- He got drunk one night with his bi friend and her gf, fucked them both, and his friend realized she always loved the cock (his cock)
- He's saving up for an engagement ring now
butnah

You watch way to many movies, there will be no happy ending for sleep. He just doesnt have the personality to pull off a happy life

[campy]

I dobeliebe our D was dazzling us with sarcasm

[doctorsleep]

Started listening to the show again, checked the forums out (not to post beacuse no good can come of that) See this get bumped the week after i start listening again...

ah jeeze

I still have not gotten laid

I graduated

I got a job, its not great but I'm saving up to move out and should be able to do it by december. (My god damn little sister just moved out to go to college yesterday and I feel like a fucking looser because that little shit gets to be an adult before I can)

I have actually talked to girls and I have gone on a few dates. Never past the first one though because you know, god forbid.

1.
had my first date ever, girl in one of my last classes asked her out to coffee and when I picked her up she said "actually you want to get something to eat" I said sure (Because in my deluded mind it upgrades to Holy shit this is a real date not just coffee) I offered to pay of course (she wanted to stop by her car and get her wallet) We went to a Chinese buffet and I watched a tiny Vietnamese girl who couldn't be over 110lbs devour 8 plates worth of food.

This girl was the most boring person i've ever met. I tried talking to her about EVERYTHING I could think of. Nothing. She watch a lot of movies, I asked her if she liked to read, her only answer was that she likes to read those "7 habits of highly effective people" like books, I was desperately grabbing at any topic I could think of just to find something to talk with her about. Shes a business major liked me so I tried talking about some business stuff "Oh I dont like business its just my major" Also she barely spoke any English, which I thought was hot, but made conversing even more difficult.

I txted her for a second date and she said no

2.
There was one girl i met on match.com, I never wanted to use online sights again so I only got back on because she winked me first. She initiated!!! And I was like "Holy shit a woman not totally disgusted by my appearance"
Got coffee with her, we had a lot in common and it was great and shes super pretty and I thought it was a lot of fun to hang out with her. and I got her facebook so it would be easier to chat

So I text her for a 2nd date and got no response. I tried facebooking her, nothing, basically what had happened was she went on a vacation and didn't bring her phone and was gone for about ten days week as i built up more and more stupid fucking messages on her phone (I think it was about 7)

I'm a fucking idiot. So I let on that I wanted to see her again and FUCKED myself beacuse she knew that I wanted to see her again so that pretty much ended that.

THIS is why I fucking hate women sometimes. You can be nice and have fun and try to hang out again but if you slip up and don't play the fucking game right you fuck yourself out of having any kind of chance.

Fuck women.

3.
Reconnected with a freind of a friend and started to chat with her on facebook. I asked her out to coffee and it was okay. It felt a little akward beacuse I had actually known her for years just not very closely. (Which means she knows all about how much of a fuck I was back in Jr.High and HS)

She said that shes moving to japan next month so I didn't really follow though with her.

So I have been on 3 dates. At least I know I can get that far. But it doesn't mean crap if you can't get the second because that means that I'm fucking up somehow even more when I try to meet them.

Also, I still can't actually talk to girls. i can't walk up and approach them, I just can't, I try but I can't, I walk up to talk to them and then just pretend to go to the restroom so I don't look like a creep for getting up. I can't do it.

I still hate myself.

I got a little bit of therapy back when i was in school beacuse it was free. It helped a little just to kind of unload everything.

The only reason i haven't killed myself is because I don't want to die a virgin, but every day that scale just keeps getting a little bigger. The older I get the less and less likely it's going to happen. I'm gonna be fucking 24 next month TWENTY FOUR.

I fucking can't stand this.

[DWarrior]

Hey, at least from #1 you learned that girls are not special. And yes, business majors tend to be really boring and unimaginative as people.

ps, not too long; totes read everthing

[lizzy1e]

Your mindset has to change, dude. You have to stop being so hard on yourself and others around you. Things are not just so black and white in this world.

I was given this to work through myself last month and it might be worth a read to help you see how you're distorting the world around you:

Cognitive distortion - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

[doctorsleep]

I know my posts are too long

I just try to put in a lot of details hoping someone can't point to exactly what I did and say

"Yep, THERE it is"

[BrianAlt]

Practice makes perfect! (I'm trying to be positive here.)

[doctorsleep]

I know, and I'm trying to get more practice.

But I just want to be in a relationship so damn bad already.

Nevermind that feeling i get when I'm at a party and people start talking about sex and I always end up getting outed as the virgin in the room

It feels empty, like I go on a date with a girl and I feel so akward and awful. Dating is terrible, I just want to be in that comfortable relationship place, where I can lean over and kiss her and not get pepper sprayed. Where I wouldn't have to try to feel out and see if it would be okay for me to hold her hand when we walked somewhere.

[Sparrow]

Originally Posted by doctorsleep

I still have not gotten laid

(My god damn little sister just moved out to go to college yesterday and I feel like a fucking looser because that little shit gets to be an adult before I can)

Never past the first one though because you know, god forbid.

1.
had my first date ever,

We went to a Chinese buffet and I watched a tiny Vietnamese girl who couldn't be over 110lbs devour 8 plates worth of food.

This girl was the most boring person i've ever met. I tried talking to her about EVERYTHING I could think of. Nothing. She watch a lot of movies, I asked her if she liked to read, her only answer was that she likes to read those "7 habits of highly effective people" like books, I was desperately grabbing at any topic I could think of just to find something to talk with her about. Shes a business major liked me so I tried talking about some business stuff "Oh I dont like business its just my major" Also she barely spoke any English, which I thought was hot, but made conversing even more difficult.

I txted her for a second date and she said no

2.
There was one girl i met on match.com, I never wanted to use online sights again so I only got back on because she winked me first. She initiated!!! And I was like "Holy shit a woman not totally disgusted by my appearance"
Got coffee with her, we had a lot in common and it was great and shes super pretty and I thought it was a lot of fun to hang out with her. and I got her facebook so it would be easier to chat

So I text her for a 2nd date and got no response. I tried facebooking her, nothing, basically what had happened was she went on a vacation and didn't bring her phone and was gone for about ten days week as i built up more and more stupid fucking messages on her phone (I think it was about 7)

I'm a fucking idiot. So I let on that I wanted to see her again and FUCKED myself beacuse she knew that I wanted to see her again so that pretty much ended that.

THIS is why I fucking hate women sometimes. You can be nice and have fun and try to hang out again but if you slip up and don't play the fucking game right you fuck yourself out of having any kind of chance.

Fuck women.

3.
Reconnected with a freind of a friend and started to chat with her on facebook. I asked her out to coffee and it was okay. It felt a little akward beacuse I had actually known her for years just not very closely. (Which means she knows all about how much of a fuck I was back in Jr.High and HS)

She said that shes moving to japan next month so I didn't really follow though with her.

So I have been on 3 dates. At least I know I can get that far. But it doesn't mean crap if you can't get the second because that means that I'm fucking up somehow even more when I try to meet them.

Also, I still can't actually talk to girls. i can't walk up and approach them, I just can't, I try but I can't, I walk up to talk to them and then just pretend to go to the restroom so I don't look like a creep for getting up. I can't do it.

I still hate myself.

I got a little bit of therapy back when i was in school beacuse it was free. It helped a little just to kind of unload everything.

The only reason i haven't killed myself is because I don't want to die a virgin, but every day that scale just keeps getting a little bigger. The older I get the less and less likely it's going to happen. I'm gonna be fucking 24 next month TWENTY FOUR.

I fucking can't stand this.

lol!

I graduated

i got a job

congrats, man!