O doctorsleep, where art thou?

[fluxquanta]

Originally Posted by BrianAlt

I recommend therapy.

I don't think this can be recommended enough.

[dannyhatch]

Doctorsleep, just trick yourself into thinking you've already had sex and live your life and look for a lover without the virgin aspect hanging over your head. And fucking stop with the preconceived notions and prejudices. It's like you cockblock yourself for a living. (Maybe it's good you lost your job, then?)

[doctorsleep]

I have decided that If I don't get a girlfriend by the end of college I will kill myself.

I am not the kind of guy who can just walk up to a girl, no matter how well I'm dressed, or how I feel, and talk to her. It can't be done, never mind the low confidence, even on my best days Im just not attractive enough for a girl not to reach for her pepperspray.

The only way I can even see myself meeting a girl is if someone I know introduces me and vouches for me. I have reached out to more people and now I'm pretty much just waiting to hear back from them. I have some plans in the works as far as getting a job and money goes and I'm not worried about it. I have enough savings to cover me until I get back on my feet and I'm also working a temp job so Its not like I'm completely cut off. I still need to move out in a few months, I don't care if its a mistake or I'm not stable, i can't stand waking up in the morning and feeling like a pathetic sack of shit because I'm a piece of trash who still lives with his parents.

And again, if I move out and don't get laid by June I'm going to off myself anyway so who cares about getting a deposit back.

[DWarrior]

Let's start a pool on who's gonna white knight. I bet it'll be one of the Canadians.

[fluxquanta]

Originally Posted by doctorsleep

I have decided that If I don't get a girlfriend by the end of college I will kill myself.

I am not the kind of guy who can just walk up to a girl, no matter how well I'm dressed, or how I feel, and talk to her. It can't be done, never mind the low confidence, even on my best days Im just not attractive enough for a girl not to reach for her pepperspray.

The only way I can even see myself meeting a girl is if someone I know introduces me and vouches for me. I have reached out to more people and now I'm pretty much just waiting to hear back from them. I have some plans in the works as far as getting a job and money goes and I'm not worried about it. I have enough savings to cover me until I get back on my feet and I'm also working a temp job so Its not like I'm completely cut off. I still need to move out in a few months, I don't care if its a mistake or I'm not stable, i can't stand waking up in the morning and feeling like a pathetic sack of shit because I'm a piece of trash who still lives with his parents.

And again, if I move out and don't get laid by June I'm going to off myself anyway so who cares about getting a deposit back.

This is fucking pathetic. I'm embarrassed to share the same genus as you.

[dannyhatch]

Shortly after I moved, there were two suicides in my hometown within a few days of each other. Both of them were teenage boys (I think 14 and 17.) I didn't know them directly and I was half a country away, but still I could feel how wracked by grief my hometown was/still is. For the past few weeks, these two kids I didn't know have been creeping into my psyche. It's affecting shit, this suicide, and it's not something to play with. Every person who ever knew you and loved you is going to be completely destroyed. Don't do it, even if it's just for their sake.

That said, fuck you. Fuck you for trying to wield that weapon. I've never met you and I only know you from reading your diatribes online and I know that the Internet can be deceiving in percepting people. But I can see that you're the worst kind of attention whore. How dare you make empty threats like that. You're, what, 22? That's something young teenagers do. The Internet's not the place for you; it's tricked you into thinking that pulling shit like this is okay. Take a look at yourself and then proceed. Don't toy with people like that.

If you need someone to talk to, send me a message. But don't do what you just did ever again.

[doctorsleep]

Im sorry but I can't vent this stuff anywhere else, I can't talk to my freinds about this. I've already pretty much begged them to set me up and the ones who might actually be able to have done nothing.

I just honestly don't see the point in anything If I'm never going to be in love.

I really REALLY do feel like its going to happen soon, but if it doesn't happen by the time I finish college then that's pretty much it, everyone else will be so much ahead of me I'll never be able to catch up and just be normal.

And im sick of people saying "Oh your young its no big deal" thats the same bullshit everyone told me when I wasn't getting laid in highschool, they said it would happen in college and it hasn't so how the fuck is it going to happen later.

[fluxquanta]

Originally Posted by dannyhatch

Shortly after I moved, there were two suicides in my hometown within a few days of each other. Both of them were teenage boys (I think 14 and 17.) I didn't know them directly and I was half a country away, but still I could feel how wracked by grief my hometown was/still is. For the past few weeks, these two kids I didn't know have been creeping into my psyche. It's affecting shit, this suicide, and it's not something to play with. Every person who ever knew you and loved you is going to be completely destroyed. Don't do it, even if it's just for their sake.

That said, fuck you. Fuck you for trying to wield that weapon. I've never met you and I only know you from reading your diatribes online and I know that the Internet can be deceiving in percepting people. But I can see that you're the worst kind of attention whore. How dare you make empty threats like that. You're, what, 22? That's something young teenagers do. The Internet's not the place for you; it's tricked you into thinking that pulling shit like this is okay. Take a look at yourself and then proceed. Don't toy with people like that.

If you need someone to talk to, send me a message. But don't do what you just did ever again.

Y'know what, I may have judged you a little prematurely. If I could go back in time, I would change my vote in that one poll about you being an intern.

Originally Posted by doctorsleep

Im sorry but I can't vent this stuff anywhere else, I can't talk to my freinds about this. I've already pretty much begged them to set me up and the ones who might actually be able to have done nothing.

I have a novel idea...how about a psychiatrist? Or, you said you're in college. Almost all colleges have counselors that are being paid to help you whether you go to them or not, and cost nothing to you out of pocket. Maybe try telling them that you're going to kill yourself if your little fantasy world doesn't come to fruition?

[Zaumaum]

Do you think that if you focused specifically on finding a healthier environment in which to live, all of the other aspects of life would become much easier/better? If you can maintain a stable lifestyle on your own, I'm sure you'll be more able to find good opportunities for healing and growth.

[Sparrow]

Don't leave a mess. Manners Matter.